VIRGO for April 30, 2008

The Bottom Line
Change is not always comfortable. Give yourself more time to get used to things.

In Detail
Change is inevitable in your life, but it is not always welcome. A new job, a new home, a new relationship or even just a new shiny gadget will affect your life in a much more complicated way than you were expecting. It is essential that you don't overreact to any discomfort you are feeling about this transition. Give yourself time to get used to things, and do not jump to the conclusion that you have made a huge mistake. There is no going back -- the only way is forward.

珊瑚海 coral sea

Clouds gather on the faraway (sea) horizon, How can I keep my sadness calm
I remained straight-faced, trying to cover the hint of resignation
You silently said that you wanted to leave (The love's gone)
The sadness slowed down silently
Listen carefully to the crashing tides,
It is not from the sea but from tears
Turning around to leave, (You have something to say but remained speechless), unable to say it's over
The love between a seagull and a fish is only an accidental occurrence
Differences had always existed in (the love you gave) our love (we can't go back)
The dust that gathers in the wind (ends up) accumulating to pain
Turning around and leave, (can't say it's over), unable to say it's over
An azure coral sea, a missed momentary paleness
Right from the beginning (you and me both) were not mature and frank enough (shouldn't)
The passion had not changed, (your) smile cannot be forced
Love is buried deep within the coral sea
How do (we) rebuild the damaged sand sculpture, how can (we) fix a broken relationship?
Only that all has ended too quickly and i said i could not understand why
What surprises await in a seashell (Waiting for the flowers to bloom)
We do not want to play the guessing game anymore
The sea breeze caressing the face (the sea breeze caressing the face)
The salty love (the salty love)
Unable to feel any future (between us)



海平面远方开始阴霾 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终夹带 一抹浅浅的无奈
你用唇语说你要离开 (情不在)
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱 （给的爱）差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃(等待)竟累积成伤害
转身离开 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此（你我都）不够成熟坦白(不应该)
热情不改 (你的) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙碉如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快 你说你无法释怀
贝壳里隐藏着什么期待 (等花儿开)
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风 (面向海风)
咸咸的爱 (咸咸的爱)
尝不出还有未来

13-4-08 {16:55}

13-4-08 {16:55}
alot in mind...alot wanna spoke out...bt nth i able to write out. two words is enuf.:- leaving soon...
ya im cming bek soon oso...bt thr is a feeling i wanna write out bt duno how to write. hw to express le?

tats all la... "zai jian" frens. im nt using byebye cuz "zai jian" means jumpa lagi...im waiting the day to meet u all again...my frens, tkd kaki and family...

destiny

wat d power come from to make dis decision? when u try to stay away from ur best fren as u hv ur own reason. ur best fren oso need to accept it and decide nt goin to meet again in the rest of life.

08 - 04 - 08

08 - 04 - 08
i stil on the moutain nt yet fall down, fren...push me down plz. or actually everything is goin smoothly and fine but oni i still step at the same position dun1 to move forward? am i oni looking forward but din move my leg at all? from wat i feel dis few day, i noe things move me forward adi. dun ustand? i oso dun ustand. neway huh im happy cuz i success b chiaki, a gd fren tat willing to do everything to frens 2day.


ti - bdr - pj - [ ukm - bukit jalil - imu ] - upm
get lost again, go and pass by [ ukm - bukit jalil - imu ] all this...2day oso lost the way like tat day i go setapak frm **2. but i din get mad o angry even wasting alot time 2 reach destination. recovered? i think so. at least i get half of my life bek? am i doin rite thing? am i selfish? cant care anymore...

07 - 04 - 08

7-4-08
Adi activate the maybankard for using oversea. Is call PLUS nt MEPS at out thr. Wakaka. Adi booked ticket and get the “white card”. So expensive, rm45. Actually is reasonable la but 1st time buy ma. Today tasks cant be complete overall. Co tired today. And soli fren,I climb mountain again today. I noe u sure scold me bt adi did it. So get me solution is bttr. :p

Saturday April 4, 2008

Girl run over by lorry after falling off m-cycle
Saturday April 5, 2008
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TAPAH: An eight-year-old girl was killed when a lorry rammed into her after she fell on the road while riding pillion on a motorcycle with her mother.

OCPD Superintendent Roslan Bek Ahmad said Rubiah Bebe, 31, had picked up her daughter Nor Farah’ain Masturi after school on her motorcycle when the incident occurred around noon, at the Jalan Ipoh-Kuala Lumpur trunk road in front of SM Sheikh Abdul Ghani.

“Rubiah was trying to overtake a car but failed because there was an oncoming lorry,” he told reporters at a press conference here yesterday.

She tried to avoid the lorry, causing her daughter to fall from the machine, he said.

Nor Farah’ain landed on the road and the lorry hit the SK Bidor schoolgirl, he said.

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i saw a scene. A mother melutut at the middle of the road hugging the daughter tat laying on the road with blood. my eye din saw the lorry, the motorbike, o all d cars ard. oni saw a mother crying holding the daughter's body while the face adi covered with a white cloth which adi red color because of the blood. and my ear oni heard the shouting from the mother. the mother's sound has completely let my tears drop without any reason. til nw, i cant forget the mother crying on the road while holding the body. huh

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30-03-08
7 am bidor to t.i – 40km
7 pm t.i to bidor – 40km
10.30 pm drive to k.l – 130km

31-03-08
9 am damansara to sunway – 20km
10 am sunway to ss2 – 15km
11 am k.l to bidor – 130km
1pm bidor to ipoh – 66km
5pm spg pulai to ch – __km
7.30 pm brinchang to t.rata– 1.8km

01-04-08
1pm p.arabella to MARDI - 1km
2pm t.rata to brinchang - 1.8km
4pm brinchang to kea farm - 3km
5pm bringchang to t.rata - 1.8km
7pm t.rata to bidor - __km


Total : 799.5 km

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20-03-08
Finally I go for the correct time for training but still don’t have a lot student, because is holiday again mah this week!!! Huh I still get my job done anyway.
I start playing with the two iron bones yday. I thought I jus play play yday. But I got too many time 2day. I start to think seriously can I do it everyday so that I can saw the result easily. When I watch tv,when I walking,when I sitting, when I cooking, when I waiting. I holding the bones whole day le!!!

21-03-08 kl
Once again driving to **, but this time following the right road. No more left road. I really shldn’t drive alone again. Haha. No la,I actually enjoying it, driving alone. Happy to meet u guys there. Although we all abit blur n stupid. Haha. Dun mind I said like this. U all get a stupid driver that’s why keep using the wrong road. This stupid driver blur till forget where is the car. Never go memorize the parking. And use more than two hours to buy the 4 “weapon” for doin the stupid thing at nite. Im really soli for that. Even though we njoying the “you che hoo” but mayb we can have a more happy time if got more time.
Neway, I think v all hv fun at the “park”,d rapid river n snake n the huge shoes n etc. excited n it really help me by shouting n shouting. And the “pool side chit chat” is wonderful even though it end up with we three need to b so xin fu at tat nite. :p 3 ppl oso nt able to carry a guy. Haha. I really happy to having chat with u all like tat at nite by putting leg in pool. Is cold,amazing… the 1st time I get in water at mid nite with jeans. Dxmn crazy!

22-03-08
Huh once again I proof that alcohol wont let me get drunk and sleep like a pig. Third time. Is enuf. I wont try to proof again. I oni wil get drunk bt I fxxking stay awake for whole nite ydy. And I stil rber wat happen n stil can drive!
But I mengaku tat Im nt tat fresh. I cant stay tat alert. Thr r bukti tat show me nt alert. Msia got good cop. I totally din saw u behind me. Summo I can tk up the hp n phone my fren to say “wei,I 4get to tk my shirt,plz send to me later”. And this make me have to be at ** by Mei2008. White leg,u’r jerk.

23-03-08
I tell myself that u must accept it since I adi expected it will bcome like tis. Do it worth? The ques nt goin to ask myself. I just try to ask this ques when I think “if I were u”. neway, im holding the bones stil 2dy.

Ques:
Do u think is too rush when I make a decision tat change my life by oni think for two days?
Ans:
Taking a long time doesn’t mean that you’re making the right decision. If you really really sure of what you’re doing, taking 10 minutes to think is enough.

24-03-08
blur day. can I put everything down? Let everything go? N do my decision as wat I decide yday?
Yes, I can. Chloe can. Chiaki can. WCY can.

25-03-08 work on cut video

26-03-08 ti - vcd

27-03-08
Why I always feel tired when I wake up in the morning that I need to work on that day. Today, same. So sleepy while I in front the school gate by 8.15am. 5 students.very good. That’s all I can say. Lucky Chuck and Underdog – my entertainment for today. – 2 movies.
Sometimes, I thought I going to give up in two days only.about the decision. Four days pass after I make the decision. And I process the decision by doing research, asking opinion, survey, and phone to confirm accommodation, transport. Even though yesterday I already start thinking am I right and understand what am I doing now, but things seems like moving smoothly and getting done soon.

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18-3-08
thought 2day gonna b a bored n free day. bt seems like nbody goin let me free n think too much. my first time yoga lesson finally taken by mr ravi. actually i was accompany my aunt go 4 a stress management course anjuran LPPKN. and their teknik mengurangkan stress for aunt-aunt is Yoga. 2hours short lesson telling u wat is yoga. i almost fall asleep when d yoga session(wat can do,im d youngest n youngest thr) bt i stay awake for d whole speech session on STRESS. it makes me realise tat d decision i made last week is correct. i was recover more than 50%.
once again i walking under d rain aftr havin meeeting at CH 2ndry sch,i realise tat i feel so calm even rains recall my memories wit my frens. im nt goin to affect by small chicken little things n make myself so hard everyday even though sometimes i stil...
driving seems like part of my life nw. iswara fetch me n mum go ip once again. to settle down things tat must settle down. summo drive to some new place again. i seems like working as driver,everyday drive to new place n learn new road. no no no im nt merungut here o say i was bored wit it. bt i reali feel tat im a driver nw. jus a driver. jus a driver.

damn. y i get myself in such situation. i dun means 2 hurt any1 anymore. i has hurt all ppl ards me. i duno things being tat important while i jz doin some my own ... i jz cant ctrl my action for a short moment. i hv return bek b chiaki at d moment i realise i adi did stupid things again. chloe wong,can u jz set urself free? im trying my best to b chiaki.

19-03-08
wat d fxxx...i hav a dxmn bad dream dis morn. i almost 4get i hv dis kind dreams adi. cuz it stopped 4 a year n nw y come again? mayb i reali need to get some1 to tells me wat it means. mayb i shld ustand y i always killed by monster in dreams. o mayb i shld happy cuz dis kind of dreams nvr been come true.

20-03-08
Finally I go for the correct time for training but still don抰 have a lot student, because is holiday again mah this week!!! Huh I still get my job done anyway.
I start playing with the two iron bones yday. I thought I jus play play yday. But I got too many time 2day. I start to think seriously can I do it everyday so that I can saw the result easily. When I watch tv,when I walking,when I sitting, when I cooking, when I waiting. I holding the bones whole day le!!!

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11-3-08
wat d H.E.double L!! i did a big mistake,actually i nt yet print completely d book for sir shan. how can i do mistake like tis while sir giv me tis responsible to check it. soli for both sir...plz allow me to complete it tis week. i shldn't do mistake like tis. i miss to print out 2 pages each belt which is d most important pages...
why all application forms is so difficult to fill up de la...alot of things i miss it n 2dy i must fill it up all...n get referees to sign for me. anyway confirmed once again i no chance to cut my hair - plan has been cancelled.

12-3-08
sleep sleep sleep until 11am...wake up adi half dy passed...photostat my IC n certs. go out find some1 tat noe me bt nt related to me n can sign as my referees. thank you uncle tung n thank you miss leong... muaks...hope i can get d scholarship...pray for it start 2dy...
confirmed i need to go sinchew tis fri. i shld comb my hair n dress nicely bor? duno. i go ask ask some stuff oni ma...anyway i noe i must b chiaki. b chiaki, ok chloe? ok.

13-3-08
i reali useless. 2day class suppose is morn 8.30am NOT 3pm, chloe. i make big mistake again. y i cant b more good in memorize schedule. reali soli for those stud tat wait instructor at morn. anyway, nth i can change, it adi pass n i cant conduct once again.
i go in kitchen again 2day,after so long,d previous time was when...frankly, i 4get again bt it seems like reali damn long time ago. go in kitchen means i cooking. tis time i try do some cystal jelly wit fruits,i noe thr is another name for it bt i duno how to write it. i oni confirm chinese is cystal jelly. wooi say so nice. li say great. dudu say ok. n it is supppose sweet taste. bt nt matter wat watever ppl say, actually i feel it vr bitter. i cant tell ppl i feel lke tat. cuz i duno how to ans their "why?" if i say it out. i jus realise tat foods cook without love is how oso nt taste good. love = ai xing...whr my love? i lost it n i gonna fail to cook anything recently i noe.

14-3-08
wat am i doin nw? wat am i here? i shld finish my tasks n return back to my shell.
bt i din. i do sth wat i 1 2 do. helping frens in my range of power is always my reaponsible.
i hav do a great job 2day.i totally successful to b chiaki,a happy chiaki.
frens, b happy for me.n plz say congrate to me.

15-3-08
wat am i doin 2daY? yday nt being a good chiaki adi rite? y i cant stop myself from doin stupid things. fxxk.i feel lega when i did stupid thing. neway, i reali din think tat i hav change anything o decision tat adi made b4. nbody is deserved to accept my stupid things bt i oso nt deserved to receive tis msg. i dun think my stupid action hav spoil the whole peasce situation tat i hav use my whole power to create. bt i oso nvr noe tat the msg tat i cant 4get each words inside had spoil me mentally. wat d fxxk i talking here? i oso dun ustand. haha. neway,tis is me,talking nt clear de,dun ask me explain n explain k.

16-3-08
thought 2day goin to b a hard day bt nvr think tat it goin to b tat ez n smooth dy. i no need do any action 2dy bt ppl tat shld find me adi all find me by own. come n get things by own. pay me by own. give me paper by own. abit nt used to it. normally nt i go n do all stuff meh? suddenly i so free,nth i can do cuz all finished. d oni things is drive bek home n all things,training,course,appointment ended.
nvrtheless, 2day i get blue black. a big blue black tat i adi long time din get. i thought im improving,i thought im more alert n i thought i wil keep in same condition. bt no,totally no,the 1st thing come in my mind when my opponent's knee hit my leg is fxxk,y i cant training lke last time?
ok i mengakui tat i din hav "kesefahaman" wit my new team member,i miss all my old members tat can train nicely wit me.i realise tis when i cant even wake up n stand thr. bt i oso make decision must get in the new geng at d moment i stand bek n recover 4 training.
neway, it reali fxxking dxmn bxstard pain n pain...i mean my leg.

17-03-08
my "pian tou tong" come again last nite, aftr so long din come disturb me. cuz it din come i oso cant sleep.so mayb my body think tat it no need come.haha. long time din feel tat pain. i feel so njoy ydy nite.tis hache pain has tk all my concerntration. good.
huh one more good thing. i found out i was AV at d moment d hache gone tis morn. god noe im njoying yday i think,dun1 let my body stop feel pain. my stomach pain til nite cuz AV. good. good good good.

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8-3-08
2dy is msia's big day. election dy. bt nt related to me. cuz i nt yet 21st. wakaka
as in d route,i at ti 2dy. 4 stuff i need to do : print d book, get d video cd, cut my hair, n b chiaki to get the small cd.
print d book = i did it. send to sir shan adi.
get d video cd = yes,madam has pass to me.
cut my hair = no. has make another plan on tis. bt finally cant complete oso.
b chiaki = yes. i think i did it. congraturation chloe.

9-3-08
o ya, happy birthday my fren, pm. i hv lost ur hp num n no chance to meet u so wishes u here. happy birthday o n wishes u dreams come true.
n oso kx, happy birthday !!! soli for 4get ur birthday :p i shld wish u when i send u home at evening de.bt my brain reali think other stupid stuff as u said,so 4get jor...hehe anyway im happy i recall back b4 2300. at least i do my best to wish u b4 2300. dun too touching o...i jus feel wanna thank you for givin me alot advises n rela hear me when i wanna talk.thx my fren n happy birthday.

10-3-08
such a busy dy. i went ip 2dy. i hv to go :
Champion shop - repair car air cond n car alarm
ShackLee - buy alfafa n B complex n Lecithin
AIA - get a Health Cert for insurans
Standard Chattered bank - pay d bank
The store - ask d result of ...
Acer (kws perindustrian ringan kinta) - repair my laptop
DiGi centre - get back my SIM card
Parade - for ViVi
bdr shop - photostat the star form
informatics - meet my coursemates
pasir pinji - meet my best fren
TGV kinta city - [10 000 Before Century] - watch movie la in cinema

done all tasks except no ViVi in parade nor jusco...
wats d feeling when u drive 140kmj on highway?
i feel it 2dy at nite 11pm.
wats d feeling drive alone at nite on highway?
i feel it 2dy at nite 11pm.
hi frens, it does nt mean anything k. dun scold me for "dangerous driving",i jus feel it in a range tat i stil can control. n i feel comfortable n lega when i reached bidor. i oso duno wats meaning i did it.bt i adi did it.tats it. ;p

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1-3-08
Was taking class as usual. sk B - sk KM - sk KB - sk Cs. feel so diff 2dy cuz i forced myself to stop many stud go grading cuz they reali nt fully prepared yet. using the fitness test, nbody goin 2 blame me bt i stil blame myself y i cant prepared them in tis two month? is it i did any wrong schedule? o wrong way to teach? o stud's problem?
must settle it tis month...

2-3-08
2nd Dan grading 2dy,passed it wif doin great in basics & taegueks but i din kick well when breaking techniques. 1 inch papan is ez for me bt i duno y half inch papan is too hard 4 me. my left leg is too weak,i mean need to build up the muscle summo. ok my target is must build up left leg muscle in tis year. hope i can did it well.
I lost my handphone,sony ericssons k750i 2dy. wat the H.E.double L!!! k750i is d 1st phone i bought by using money tat totally earn by me. inside d phone, thr r too many my memories...i mean photos n videos(i cant record d same video once again)...wat cn do,is my own fault caused the hp lost. i shldn't do ... watever,i stil need time to recover n stop blaming myself.haai...wat a wonderful day,passed grading bt lost hp. reali "gd" dy.

3-3-08 ~\
4-3-08 ~ \
|~~~>> regarding wat happenned tis morn. i hope it wont happen again.
5-3-08 ~ /
6-3-08 ~/

7-3-08
wat the H.E.double L !! i hv tk d wrong road 2 go setapak. soli 4 let u worry n wait me,fren. 1st time i totally lost my way the oni thing in my mind is i wanna get out from here!! bt y i get lost? i noe d reason. definitely, confirmly noe y. cuz my brain is too busy,i totally did nt concerntrate when drivin. each time oso miss out the junction tat i shld follow. y is tat hard 2 keep myself breathing? am i sick? i feel heart pain...it took my breath away...i hv 2 deep breathing 2 make myself comfortable.is too hard for me...
then actually thr r oni half day passed...i reached bdr by noon n i at ip at nite. one more time i in dis route = kl - bdr - ip - bdr(3am so consider 2nd dy) - ti(2nd dy). bt feeling is diff for the same route. i noe i cant control everytime oso same. bt dis journey reali ...
Anyway, thr r sth vr hapi 2dy. v clbrate kx n jack's birth.
1 cake -
2 birth boy -
3 jugs juice -
4 mcd burgers -
5 ppl -
6 carlsberg -
7 pages of song list -
8pm start journey -
9 foods (nuggets,fball,hotdog,3 snacks,fun fries, burgers, foldover) -
10pm start singing!!!